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Wednesday, October 7, 2009

25 things about me

I have probably already posted this
but I came across it again
where it had originally been shared
and thought, why not?
so here we go...

1. I love the smell and feel of the ocean salt on my skin on a warm day and grass or sand underneath my feet. I hate wearing closed shoes. Going barefoot or in flip-flops everyday makes me devastatingly happy.

2. I'm ridiculously shy when meeting new people.

3. I love naming things that are dear to me. I named my first guitar Mossad. And my second, Fez. My ukulele is named Kauanoe (misty rain). My laptop is named Moss (Maurice), after my grandpa. When I was 13, I named my stuffed bunny, Rosencrantz Archimedes... it's still in my posesssion.

4. To this day, I love lurking in the poetry section of libraries.. and I love reading poetry in its native language.

5. I adore seeing the hidden beauty and potential in people, the more obscure, the more satisfying and wonderful. There is incredible beauty all around, sometimes you just have to soften your eyes.

6. Perpetually backpacking around the world and living in a community/village in some off-the-map jungle has been a constant temptation since I was young. I frequently dream of simply packing my bag and hanging out in South East Asia or Latin America for a few years... the time, I feel is drawing closer for this..

7. Singing beautiful songs makes me very, very happy.

8. I'm a story-teller and a collector of stories. It's in my blood. Like the ocean

9. I constantly write words, phrases, paragraphs of beauty in my head and sometimes on paper, but can never seem to be able to remember the melody I put to any of them.

10. Every year since I was 13 (except 2008), I have read 'To Kill A Mockingbird' and 'My Family and Other Animals'. 'Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency' has been read every year since the very early part of this century.

11. I was an anti-globalist of the communist/socialist persuasion for a number of years. Before uni. It was borne out of a pure desire.

12. I am much too sarcastic for my own good. Frequently. But definitely without a hint of malice. Thus I do enjoy the talents of the likes of Jack Dee and Eddie Izzard.

13. Sometimes I think that there might actually be no blood in my veins, only salt water. No matter how badly or how well my life is going, when I sit by the ocean, everything is better. And God, closer.

14. I'm an artist. But I love quantum physics. And I was in the chess club. I still have moments of monumental nerd-dom. And my God seems to have painted fractals into everything.

15. I'm never going to retire, because I'm always going to love what I do. There's no room in life for regret.

16. I was born in Fiji, moved to Aussie when I was 1yr old. I went to 9 different primary schools and 3 high schools, due to moving around (Australia) so often for my dad's job (draftsman). During this time, I also lived in Malaysia for 3 wonderful, dark, significant years. And I wholeheartedly appreciate my parents moving us around so often and implanting in me the insatiable travel bug and appreciation of people and culture.

17. I'm no good at arguing. I always seem to lose my thread and motivation to continue.

18. I have been debating for years, whether or not to just go for it and get dreads. It's the whole shaving-my-head-and-subsequ
ently-getting-a-bad-afro part that impinges on these thoughts.

19. I ought to be a much better guitar player than I am, however, I have a sneaking suspicion that I'm just incredibly lazy in this area. I still dream of playing the drums (kit and hand drums), sita, cello and violin one day.

20. I used to make mixed tapes for people, but have only recently met kindred spirits who not only appreciate and understand, but also took part in this art-form.

21. I think a life lived without awareness and embodiment of Beauty, Love and Passion is not really life.

22. I spent 9 years (not consecutive) dilly-dallying in the Australian university education system. I can write an essay on just about anything off the top of my head. Without doing the required readings. Skills for life, eh? I almost took political science instead of nursing.

23. I would love to own a two-tone kombi microbus with safari windows.

24. Air-conditioners make me feel nauseated. Including the ones in shopping malls.

25. Every day, it becomes increasingly clear, as it infuses every part of me, that I have the Love I've always dreamed of.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

pianos and piercings

I'm off to the city with my bestest friend
to watch the rugby.
I am not a fan, but she loves it and I love her..
haha

only thing is.. it's raining
it's been raining almost non stop since yesterday
and I am.. without adequate protection..
..no brolly!!

anyhow.. I tweaked some of the features on my blog
and spent some time in photoshop
we'll see how long it is until I get tired of it LOL

I guess this is the reason I never got a tattoo
-- I would get tired of the same thing over and over.
I used to want my arms tattooed in black and grey
one 3/4 and one 1/4 length...
I might still get a small one somewhere

but it always has to have a meaning.
I only pierced my ears and nose to represent something
significant that happened.
No nose ring anymore,
wanted a vertical labret until a few weeks ago
now contemplating a horizontal eyeborw piercing.
we shall see.
lol

ok I'm off to brave the elements and just chill.

the ramblings of an ex-insomniac... 3am australian eastern standard time

I worked an evening shift tonight..
and still haven't quite rested since
getting back from the base, just been working.
I am tired,
but now I find it's 3:30am and I am awake.

I am a little stoked.. and apprehensive.
it's only a few more weeks til I leave this place.
I officially go back to YWAM in mid-January,
however I will be going up to Brisvegas
for a wedding, to spend Christmas with my best friend
and her family and do some training for DTS staffing.

Yay! I get to be in the lovely humid Brisbane summer weather!!
this is like a death sentence to a lot of people
but I am stoked.
I used to live in Malaysia and became
quite fond of the humidity.
I am a strange one.

it's a little weird to think that I am leaving soon
every other time I've gone to YWAM
I've always had something tying me back here
-- mostly uni.. but I've graduated now
and it's time for me to be me,
and to stop living in that limbo, torn between
desperately wanting to live my life and
not wanting to disappoint my parents.
but that time is over now.

my parents are not so stoked about me going to YWAM
and forsaking a career..
..they'll get it one day.
I know they wonder at my strange existence.

I found my copy of The Shack today.
I have read half of it, and today on my break at work
I opened it up randomly
and read something that really struck my heart.
when I first started reading it,
I found him to be a little tedious.
and as I read I found myself growing
more and more impatient with him...

...only to discover that I see so much of myself
in the attitudes and reactions of the main character.
I will start reading it again from the beginning.
and we will see what happens.

I really hope my boss doesn't call me to work tomorrow
I just need to rest.

I want to sit in my favourite spot
the place that I sit when no one but me is at home
by the back door, at the dining table
and this rain we've been having is so beautiful
so inspiring to me.