waterfalls of honeywine

I'm laying everything down before the Lord.
Bit by bit. Life never turns out the way you think
and I figure the best thing is to just fall more deeply in love with Him.
I never wanted an epic love story, just a real one.
One that takes my breath away and regularly moves my heart
to passions it has never experienced before..

..And all this time, I was in the middle of it
I just never looked closely enough because I was always in the way..
too insecure.. too needy.. too focused on my pain
and not trusting God's Good heart...

I feel like..see more now.
I'm drinking my wine with milk and dying to be closer to Him.
I'm on a hunt for the treasure in my Lover's soul, in His breath, in His heart.
I'm more desperate than I've ever been, for this Lover of mine..
for His potency.

I feel like the woman in song of songs
who was beaten when looking for him..
My love was so naiive and immature..

It's been through fire and grown now, just a little..
but eons from where it was.
But really it's His love.

I just want to dance like We've never danced before..