and still haven't quite rested since
getting back from the base, just been working.
I am tired,
but now I find it's 3:30am and I am awake.
I am a little stoked.. and apprehensive.
it's only a few more weeks til I leave this place.
I officially go back to YWAM in mid-January,
however I will be going up to Brisvegas
for a wedding, to spend Christmas with my best friend
and her family and do some training for DTS staffing.
Yay! I get to be in the lovely humid Brisbane summer weather!!
this is like a death sentence to a lot of people
but I am stoked.
I used to live in Malaysia and became
quite fond of the humidity.
I am a strange one.
it's a little weird to think that I am leaving soon
every other time I've gone to YWAM
I've always had something tying me back here
-- mostly uni.. but I've graduated now
and it's time for me to be me,
and to stop living in that limbo, torn between
desperately wanting to live my life and
not wanting to disappoint my parents.
but that time is over now.
my parents are not so stoked about me going to YWAM
and forsaking a career..
..they'll get it one day.
I know they wonder at my strange existence.
I found my copy of The Shack today.
I have read half of it, and today on my break at work
I opened it up randomly
and read something that really struck my heart.
when I first started reading it,
I found him to be a little tedious.
and as I read I found myself growing
more and more impatient with him...
...only to discover that I see so much of myself
in the attitudes and reactions of the main character.
I will start reading it again from the beginning.
and we will see what happens.
I really hope my boss doesn't call me to work tomorrow
I just need to rest.
I want to sit in my favourite spot
the place that I sit when no one but me is at home
by the back door, at the dining table
and this rain we've been having is so beautiful
so inspiring to me.
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