Away til mid-Jan..

I'm in Queensland at the moment, visiting friends & doing training for YWAM in Jan.. So I'll be back on the blogosphere in a few weeks..

Photos & musings to come!
Mele Kalikimaka :D
Merry Christmas x

the last month or so..

waterfalls of honeywine

I'm laying everything down before the Lord.
Bit by bit. Life never turns out the way you think
and I figure the best thing is to just fall more deeply in love with Him.
I never wanted an epic love story, just a real one.
One that takes my breath away and regularly moves my heart
to passions it has never experienced before..

..And all this time, I was in the middle of it
I just never looked closely enough because I was always in the way..
too insecure.. too needy.. too focused on my pain
and not trusting God's Good heart...

I feel like..see more now.
I'm drinking my wine with milk and dying to be closer to Him.
I'm on a hunt for the treasure in my Lover's soul, in His breath, in His heart.
I'm more desperate than I've ever been, for this Lover of mine..
for His potency.

I feel like the woman in song of songs
who was beaten when looking for him..
My love was so naiive and immature..

It's been through fire and grown now, just a little..
but eons from where it was.
But really it's His love.

I just want to dance like We've never danced before..

to me You have run

it's been quite a while since I've updated this blog
and many things have come to pass during this time
mostly to do with healing and restoration.

This year has been quite rough,
with God bringing out very dark things in my heart
and also restoring lost, absent hope to my heart.
to get rid of the lies, they need to be rooted out
and replaced with truth.

A lot of it had to do with my calling and also my identity in Christ.
and I can see now God's fingerprints
and I never stopped feeling Him so close by.

My church has been having a Burn24 hr worship time
over this weekend and it's been amazing.
I was there for the opening and stayed through the night
til the next mid-afternoon.

I have a call and anointing for intimate worship
and this year over the last few months, one of the areas
that was attacked and God rooting out lies
was in that area.
I came to the point where I truly had forgotten what I was anointed for

and during the Burn on the first night,
it was around 2am, and there were some hungry lovers
scattered about the place
I took a step of faith and picked up the guitar
my friend hopped on the piano
and I worshipped God like never before
I got so drunk in His love
just singing out His heart and mine
in that beautiful place where they collide..
all In Him.

going back tonight for more shaka
to drink deeeeeeeep of His love and glory and joyful goodness

I am heading up to Brisvegas (Brisbane)
next weekend for Christmas and to do training in Jan for YWAM
then I am back to the base as full time staff.
but that is a whole different story for next time.

God's love and faithfulness tears me apart.
I love it.