banana

so.. being home is a little ...surreal..
feels like a whole different world.
I guess when I was at the base last year,
on staff, my heart was still one foot out the door
in a way
especially as I was still at uni
and terrified to commit to anything.

there is a sweet breeze sitting lightly upon the air
dancing and moving my t-shirt as I type.
the hint of winter is still clinging to life, whispering
that rememberance before it begins its journey
across the pond, as spring announces summer's entrance
like a dear old friend long since gone...

I'm going to the city tonight
to see old drinking friends I've not seen in a long while.
By drinking friends, I mean other people
who love getting drunk in the Holy Spirit!

but today.. I feel like I'm almost walking in a dreamland.
in a nice way.
today is a day for deep thoughts and considerations.
I have been thinking about many things
since being home.

there shall be more.
but tonight, I dance.

bloggystuff

my blog is undergoing renovations.
trying to make a new header
this one is interim...
and I love my new background!
but the current header makes it all look way too pink now!!

2 musos I love

friday never hesitates

I tried to finish the painting today,
but no such luck.
I ended up painting over it all
about 3 times.

and I am blank.
I mean.. I just have to hit that one point
where it all crystallises and clarity ensues.
Soon.

I need some Posca Paint pens
I first encountered them in year 5
and ever since, they have held a special place in my heart
the kind where voices are hushed and awe
is all around
haha.. I know.
nerdy or what. they are just pens after all
to some, perhaps.
to me, they are completely amazing.

so now I just need to find some.
I don't recall seeing any for a long time in newsagents, etc
I really don't feel like traipsing all over Sydney for them.
on a vaguely related note,
I know what I want to give a friend for Christmas.

Some Beautiful Things

1. eating dinner with my ma, just the 2 of us, and just talking.

2. rediscovering my love for posca pens & getting stoked on
all the things I dream I'm going to paint.

3. uplifting words from a dear friend.. and someone I consider
to be a mentor of sorts.


and this song... always makes me smile

a day in the life of pictures

strands of my ma's fijian broom

some of my favourite passages and my beautiful bookmark from a very dear friend



the beginnings of a painting that has to be finished soon


a tangle of old quilling paper

what I'm reading

I liked the way they looked in the bowl

some of my currently homeless & displaced art supplies

old dried paint in one of my palettes

part of one of my old paintings, which I was reacquainted with this week at a friend's house, where it lives on her living room wall

turn my water into wine

I hate those days when
there is so much to say
but when you are standing right in front
of the person you meant to
speak these words of love and beauty and joy to...
...your breath catches in your throat and
your heart panics at the thought of being seen
that clearly...
..and yet, all you want is to be seen that deeply.
to be Known and loved for everything
that's found there

It happened to me today.
sigh.
learning to trust is so hard sometimes.
and regret sucks.

so.. just because I can...
here are My 5BT since last week:

1. long, warm cuddles.

2. feeling that deep deep craving for more of God
while going through my day. I could barely finish
peeling the potatoes at one stage, I just wanted to drop it all
& sit at His feet.

3. falling into the arms of dear friends when
things feel so rough, knowing I'm falling into
the arms of Jesus.

4. my first taste of pumpkin crunch cake,
made by her, with Love.

5. standing in the truth, especially when
it feels like a lie.

stand by me

walking amongst the trees

here is part of a song
I wrote last week
a few of my favourite lines...


Hand in hand in hand
Feet entwined in the sand
Mangoes and moonbeams and melodies
Making me smile

Breathless glances find a way to make
Dreams come to life
Breathless glances find me a way
To your heart

Whispers and raindrops and cherry trees
Silhouettes of love

anuhea

this girl is so beautiful
her music her style
so chill and natural
she's part native Hawaiian
and grew up in Maui.

her Hawaiian grandmother had a dream
before she was born, with the name
Anuheake'alaokalokelani,
which means
'the cool fragrance of the heavenly rose'
(which is the Maui flower).

born Rylee Anuheake'alaokalokelani Jenkins
she is known as Anuhea,
which by itself means
'cool breeze'

admittedly, I listened to her music
because I was intrigued by her name.
I love names from the Pacific Islands
(and yes a large part of my blood is Pacifika)
and I especially love names with real meaning
which were given deliberately and
in love.
which is the way I grew up.

enjoy!



my 3BT for today

1. a lovely email from a woman who is closer
than a friend, a sister

2. discovering music that stirs my heart

3. something beautiful today which is yet to come

cocoa & cuddly blankets

today I woke up
and the sun was shining.
Even though summer is long gone
today is so beautiful.

I get so down at wintertime,
as I feel the cold so easily.
but this year,
I decided it's time to Look.

to see the beauty of God in wintertime
(without snow)
and every sunny day is incredibly
precious to me.
i never want to take one for granted.
even in summer! ha

I've been sick, so lying in bed
listening to Bethel podcasts
and watching Dr Who

sigh. happy simple times.

My 3BT

1. Memories of younger days that are brought
back when I watch Dr Who

2. Feeling that sense of excitement for the future
with no idea what is to come, but just knowing that
my Lover said it will be more than I could dream

3. hope of another beautiful summer to come


time for hot chocolate.

merry-go-rounds & sashimi daze

so tomorrow I will hopefully
be able to put in my application for
my nursing registration.
awright!

sigh, life is still changing...
all things..
work together..
for Good :D
Coz I love Him.

I went to sushi train for the first time on Monday
with some close friends
I am still craving sashimi.







My 3BT for today:

1. Praying for a dear friend and seeing God
touch her heart and find peace in His arms.

2. Holding the hand of another dear friend.

3. Chocolate cake, tea & laughter with my girls.