Away til mid-Jan..

I'm in Queensland at the moment, visiting friends & doing training for YWAM in Jan.. So I'll be back on the blogosphere in a few weeks..

Photos & musings to come!
Mele Kalikimaka :D
Merry Christmas x

the last month or so..

waterfalls of honeywine

I'm laying everything down before the Lord.
Bit by bit. Life never turns out the way you think
and I figure the best thing is to just fall more deeply in love with Him.
I never wanted an epic love story, just a real one.
One that takes my breath away and regularly moves my heart
to passions it has never experienced before..

..And all this time, I was in the middle of it
I just never looked closely enough because I was always in the way..
too insecure.. too needy.. too focused on my pain
and not trusting God's Good heart...

I feel like..see more now.
I'm drinking my wine with milk and dying to be closer to Him.
I'm on a hunt for the treasure in my Lover's soul, in His breath, in His heart.
I'm more desperate than I've ever been, for this Lover of mine..
for His potency.

I feel like the woman in song of songs
who was beaten when looking for him..
My love was so naiive and immature..

It's been through fire and grown now, just a little..
but eons from where it was.
But really it's His love.

I just want to dance like We've never danced before..

to me You have run

it's been quite a while since I've updated this blog
and many things have come to pass during this time
mostly to do with healing and restoration.

This year has been quite rough,
with God bringing out very dark things in my heart
and also restoring lost, absent hope to my heart.
to get rid of the lies, they need to be rooted out
and replaced with truth.

A lot of it had to do with my calling and also my identity in Christ.
and I can see now God's fingerprints
and I never stopped feeling Him so close by.

My church has been having a Burn24 hr worship time
over this weekend and it's been amazing.
I was there for the opening and stayed through the night
til the next mid-afternoon.

I have a call and anointing for intimate worship
and this year over the last few months, one of the areas
that was attacked and God rooting out lies
was in that area.
I came to the point where I truly had forgotten what I was anointed for

and during the Burn on the first night,
it was around 2am, and there were some hungry lovers
scattered about the place
I took a step of faith and picked up the guitar
my friend hopped on the piano
and I worshipped God like never before
I got so drunk in His love
just singing out His heart and mine
in that beautiful place where they collide..
all In Him.

going back tonight for more shaka
to drink deeeeeeeep of His love and glory and joyful goodness

I am heading up to Brisvegas (Brisbane)
next weekend for Christmas and to do training in Jan for YWAM
then I am back to the base as full time staff.
but that is a whole different story for next time.

God's love and faithfulness tears me apart.
I love it.

me & my best friend

my dear best friend
the sister I never had..
My Lewa

the amount of things that have come against our friendship
is only overshadowed by the Good things
that God has done in it
and the deep deep healing He has been releasing
in so many areas for both of us.

this is my little pictoral tribute to the friendship
I have with a person who has changed my life in so many ways
that she may never even realise

someone I can't imagine my life without
whom God has blessed me with in incredible ways
beyond my imagination
someone who has modelled the love of Jesus to me
in the both the darkest and happiest of times.

I love you so much Lewa!

Let us go into His dwelling place; Let us worship at His footstool.
~ psalm 132:7

she is a breath-taking beautiful princess
strong and tender-hearted
a woman of the highest integrity
a lovesick worshipping warrior
who walks in eternal truth and incredible love.
She carries the heart and glory of the King of Kings.




..and she's on outreach right now
-- I miss her terribly~!!!

Blissed

I'm Ecstatically in love with the King of Glory
and getting more & more drunk
and Blissed Out on the New Wine of His Heart,
His Love Glory Joy Presence..

Will write an update sooooooooooon..

Hebrews 9:11
‘But when Christ arrived as the high priest of the bliss that was to be, he passed through the greater and more perfect tent which no hands had made…

oh let me tell you
let me tell you
I am lovesick
no other love is destined for my heart

oh let me tell you
let me tell you
I am lovesick
no other love is destined for my heart

so come on
ravish my heart oh God
I need You to

..come share Your secrets with me ..take me into the wild of nature ..the barren land of deep honey where the water moves with Your breath ..whisper Your raging love to my savage heart..

~Losana

King of Glory

Let Your love surround me
Wrap Your arms around me
'Til I, I am arrested
By your embrace, face to face

Cause with You I'm free
You share secrets with me
Because I, I am in love with You

Holy Father, You reign
King of my heart, I praise Your name

[~ chris quilala ]

a weekend in Sydney

quality time with the girls @ GJ's in Cronulla, after surfing

awesome fun @ Gertrude & Alice's, bookstore cafe @ Bondi Beach.. some of the best chai I've had outside India




an interesting installation my friend & I stumbled across a few days ago in the city

under the birdcages..


me & my very best friend. She really is the sister I never had.

from the land of the barren we will cry out for rain

keep looking at the bigger picture.

you would not believe the way He looks at me

you would not believe
the way He touches me
He burns right through me

I can't hold my love back from You
I've gotta sing
Sing My Love

upon a sea of green, we danced to the song of fragrant memories and longing

He wrote some of the most passionate
real verse concerning love, passion, anger..
..Life.
This is one of my favourites.
__________________________

All night I have slept with you
next to the sea, on the island
Wild and sweet you were between pleasure and sleep,
between fire and water.

Perhaps very late
our dreams joined
at the top or at the bottom,
up above like branches moved by a common wind,
down below like red roots that touch.

Perhaps your dream
drifted from mine
and through the dark sea
was seeking me
as before,
when you did not exist,
when without sighting you
I sailed by your side,
and your eyes sought
what now---
bread, wine,love and anger--
I heap upon you
because you are the cup
that was waiting for the gifts of my life.

I have slept with you
all night long while
the dark earth spins
with the living and the dead,
and on waking suddenly
in the midst of the shadow
my arm encircled your waist.

Neither night nor sleep
could separate us.

I have slept with you
and on waking, your mouth
come from your dream,
gave me the taste of earth,
of sea water, of sea weed,
of the depths of your life
and I received your kiss
moistened by the dawn
as if it came to me
from the sea that surrounds us.

_______________


Toda la noche he dormido contigo
junto al mar, en la isla.
Salvaje y dulce eras entre el placer y el sueño,
entre el fuego y el agua.

Tal vez muy tarde
nuestros sueños se unieron
en lo alto o en el fondo,
arriba como ramas que un mismo viento mueve,
abajo como rojas raíces que se tocan.

Tal vez tu sueño
se separó del mío
y por el mar oscuro
me buscaba
como antes
cuando aún no existías,
cuando sin divisarte
navegué por tu lado,
y tus ojos buscaban
lo que ahora
—pan, vino, amor y cólera—
te doy a manos llenas
porque tú eres la copa
que esperaba los dones de mi vida.

He dormido contigo
toda la noche mientras
la oscura tierra gira
con vivos y con muertos,
y al despertar de pronto
en medio de la sombra
mi brazo rodeaba tu cintura.
Ni la noche, ni el sueño
pudieron separarnos.

He dormido contigo
y al despertar tu boca
salida de tu sueño
me dio el sabor de tierra,
de agua marina, de algas,
del fondo de tu vida,
y recibí tu beso
mojado por la aurora
como si me llegara
del mar que nos rodea.

[ Pablo Neruda ]
'La Noche en la Isla'
The Captain's Verses.1971